I need to write 

It’s been a really long time since I’ve written anything except emails. The worst part is I think about it all the time ” I should start blogging again” ” I should write this down”, ” this would make a great post” and so it goes on and on. So? You may ask. Why? If I want to write, if I think about it all the time, if it’s really something I want to do , why oh why have I just not done it? Well let me share with you the top three excuses I have given to myself over the last year (or more)

  1. I’m not a good writer
  2. No one reads my blogs anyway
  3. I’m just too busy 

I could go further into each one but I need to make this point quickly (because I’m writing on the GoTrain and they’re going to kick me off soon) Those three excuses all can be summarized into one big reality. I’m scared. Yuppp it all comes down to fear. I fucking hate fear. I hate it because my logical self knows things like fear is all in your head and you have to push past the fear, you can’t let fear stop you from doing the things you love. But my afraid self says ” Yes! Fear is in my head. That’s the problem! I can hear it in my head reminding me over and over that this is scary. Run the other way! push past the fear? Are you kidding me? Fear is heavy. It’s piles of bricks heavy. It’s moving a mountain heavy. In fact it’s like a mountain of bricks heavy! 

Today however, I woke up thinking about everything fear has stopped me not only from doing but even trying in the past and decided that writing this blog is something I love to do and I am shutting the fear up. Because once I get down to it the only thing I’m afraid of is myself. I’m my biggest critic and honestly the only who cares what my writing is like. I am so afraid of what I’m going to think of myself that I don’t take the chance to do it. Screwed up right?  

So here it is Libertydee, your comeback post. You wrote it. It’s done. And you will hit “post” without over analyzing every word. And it doesn’t matter if no one reads it, or if the writing won’t win you a Pulitzer because you loved it and you pushed that fuckin’ mountain even if it was all in your head. 

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Grandpa and the War of 1812

Last Month I wrote about some of my favorite family quotes in Why a Unicorn is Better Than a Pony and so I have decided to start a reoccurring Blog post made up of Quotes of the Month. My kids are always saying all kinds of things that I think are worth noting somewhere and once in a while I’ll even catch myself saying something to the kids that sound absolutely ridiculous.
So here we are. Below you will find the top quotes said by my family in the month of July.

1. We’re not wrestling. We’re hugging on the floor- The Plan_ in response to my ”STOP WRESTLING!” when I heard a commotion upstairs.
2. “Is that the war grandpa fought in?” – The Life_ as my husband talked to the boys about the war of 1812
3. “If you make me yell at you I’m going to kill you!” _ Me to the boys as they were getting “restless” in a hotel room we had been stuck in all day and I was ten days into my Orange Rhino Challenge.

This next one a small excerpt of a conversation between The Plan and The Life at the dinner table when the topic turned to how babies are made:

The Life – “So do they have to take their clothes off?”
The Plan – “This is what I don’t get. They don’t have to but they choooose to.
Technically they only have to take off their pants.

Join me again next month when one of my kids will say “blahblah blahblah blah
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Award x 2 = Super Sweet Blog & Versatile Blogger

I got back from my vacation to find that I have been nominated for two different awards by three different people!! Wooohooo!! Yay Me!

I am still a very new blogger and it blows my mind that people actually read this stuff. I mean, I think its great stuff but for others to not only read it but nominate my blog for these awards is just wonderful.

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Thank you very much to Working MotherAssistant for nominating me for the Super Sweet Blogger award. Please head over and check her blog out right now. Go. Now. ( but don’t forget to comeback here!)

A BIG BIG Thank you also to Brianne Huwe and Mummy Flying Solo for their versatile_zps69e5ac6anomination for the Versatile Blogger Award.  Please head over to their blogs too.

Instead of creating two separate posts for these awards I am melding them together and passing them both on.

The rules for those nominated:

1. Thank the blogger who nominated you.

2. Answer 5 Super Sweet questions (found below)

3. Post 7 Interesting Things about yourself.

3. Include the award image in your blog post.

4. Nominate 10 other deserving bloggers.

5. Notify your  nominees on their blog.

5 Super Sweet questions

1. Cookies or Cake?

What kind of a question is this? Really? Cookies or Cake. This would have to be a pretty nasty world we live in if one day we are made to choose one or the other. I like to believe we live in a society where we can have both. Yes both. No need to choose and no one can make me take sides. I stand for the right to eat both cookies and cake and the freedom to love them equally.

2. Chocolate or Vanilla?

I’m on team Chocolate.

3. Favorite Sweet Treat?

Hot apple pie with Vanilla ice cream. Kind of contradicts my answer above. The only time that vanilla will win over chocolate is when it’s sitting atop hot apple pie. And I mean really hot, none of this warm or room temperature or dare I even say cold apple pie. YUCK! I Like it Hot, Hot, Hot.

4. When Do You Crave Sweet Things The Most?

I like to think of myself as an equal opportunity eater, so any time of day is a good opportunity for something sweet.

5. Sweet Nick Name?

I tend to use Honey quite a bit but if I start a sentence with “Ohh Sweetie Pie..” in a sing song voice, someone is in BIG trouble.

I’d love it if someone started calling me Chocolate Thunder!

7 Interesting Things About Myself

  1. I have never smoked. There was one time at a club with some friends in my 20s where I held a cigarette to my mouth but I had no clue what I was doing and I swear I didn’t inhale.
  2. I am much more comfortable speaking in front of a large group than I am in a small setting.
  3. I love my birthday. I have no problem with the fact that I am getting older. I don’t always like what comes along with it but I don’t lie about my age and I make sure everyone knows when my birthday is coming.
  4. MrLibertyDee and I went to prom together as “friends” and that same night I told him that he and I would never be anything more and he should give it up. (There’s a lot to be said for persistence)
  5. My first job was selling inflatable toys at a kiosk in the mall. It lasted one day.
  6. I don’t take sugar in my coffee. People think its really health conscious of me but for some reason cake tastes better with a coffee that has no sugar.
  7. I played the trombone for 9 years and I’m considering taking it up again.

Nominees: There are some in here that have received similar awards recently so I don’t expect you to go through the process yet again but I did want to recognize your super sweet and versatile blog.

Fascinations Of A Vanilla Housewife

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Field Notes From Fatherhood

Did That Just Happen Blog

I’ve Become My Parents

Raising 5 Kids With Disabilities And Remaining Sane Blog

Ah Dad…

Chasing A Daredevil & Twins

How To Ruin A Toddler’s Day

The Adventures Of Fanny P.

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And there you have it. Thanks for reading!

Introducing….

I had set a goal for myself to come up with some “blog names” for my kids this week ( you can read that post here) and I have.  I wanted names that capture their personalities somehow or helped paint a picture of who they are. So without any further ado, let me introduce you to three little beings I have been blessed with. Starting from oldest to youngest:

  1. The Plan – My first-born was two years in the making. Just when Mr.LibertyDee and I started considering adopting I was sent on a three-week business trip but I was flying home on the weekends.  Turns out I got pregnant on one of these visits! Thank goodness the The Plan looks a lot like my husband or else that would have been a bit fishy. The Plan has an amazing memory which makes school a breeze for him. He loves to analyze everything, he’s a thinker has a quick witt ( that gets him in trouble) and he believes rules are there for a reason and should be followed at all times.
  2. The Life – Our second son was born 360 days after The Plan. We knew we wanted more kids but since it took so long the first time, we were completely surprised when we found out I was pregnant again. I always say I was pregnant for two years because I never got a chance to not feel pregnant before I was expecting again. He gave us quite a scare and had to be delivered via emergency C-Section weighing only 5lbs 9oz at 37 weeks. The Life is the total opposite of  The Plan. School is challenging but he would easily survive if left home alone for weeks because he’s resourceful. He doesn’t over think things which makes him a risk taker, he’s care free and just enjoys life. He believes rules are just guidelines that can be changed an altered depending on the situation.
  3. Baby Girl – She is 7 years younger that The Life and completely unexpected. She is a complete terror  angel. She is wise beyond her years and loves “girly” things. She’s opinionated and brave. She adores her brothers whom she refers to as “The Brothers” but terrorizes them but taking control of the TV or taking their stuff. I have realized that no matter what she will always be my baby girl. Although, for the first 6 months of her life we lovingly referred to her as The Kraken

I am left speechless on a regular basis as two how three children conceived by the same parents, raised by the same parents and living in the same community can all be so different. Life with them is a constant horror comedy of events as they try to kill get along and live their lives with their crazy parents .

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A Fleeting Moment

We are cottage sitting for friends, and drove up on Sunday to spend the day there.  It is about a three hour drive including the “I need to pee” I’m hungry” and “my bum hurts” stops but it’s worth it even for just for a day because it’s an absolutely lovely, quiet place on the water with plenty to keep the kids busy.
Although they had been calling for rain, by the time we got there the weather was just as I like it . The clouds were covering the sun, there was a slight breeze and some how there were no bugs out.
The boys and baby girl had settled in front of the TV to play their favorite X Box game ( yes X Box at the cottage but that’s a whole other post) and Mr.Libertydee was going to take a nap on the couch. I ceased the opportunity and snuck out the back door onto the deck.
I pulled out a chair and sat looking towards the water. There is somehing so peaceful about a body of water. I looked out and just smiled to myself. What a wonderful moment. The stillness, with ony the sound of the birds in the background. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone to take a picyure. An attempt to not just capture the moment but to hold on to it. Here is what I was seeing:

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As I was putting the phone back in my pocket, I heard a tap, tap, tap. Must be a woodpecker I thought and I looked up into the trees to try and catch a glimpse. Then Knock, knock, knock. The sound was coming from behind me. Oh NO! A child had found me! They must be at the sliding door behind me. Don’t look back. I told myself. But then…
KNOCK..KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK and a very faint mooommmy!  I was too weak to resist looking back. I turned around to find my baby girl pressed up against the sliding door calling for me.
I’m glad I have taken up blogging because where I normally would have felt frustrated that my tranquility was nothing but a fleeting moment , I can now take the opportunity to snap a picture. Oh well, so much for peace and quite.

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A.K.A Surprise!

Ever since I started writing this blog I have been stumped for “blog names” for my kids. I think the use of nicknames is important as one day our children will probably not appreciate the stories we share about them (because they are all true) and I know that for me, my oldest son, although he’s my biggest fan, has at times edited my writing where he thought he was being misrepresented.

Right now when I write about them I refer to them as My oldest, My middle son and either The girl or my Baby girl. I don’t like that naming convention for two reasons:

  1. It doesn’t do their individuality any justice
  2. It’s boring

As I read other family blogs there are all kinds of awesome names that have been given to the kids such as Thing 1 and Thing 2, Slim, and my favorite Fireball. These names help paint a picture, they build character and are just plain fun.  So my goal for the rest of this week is to come up with some names.

I did have one idea but my husband thought it may cause permanent damage to the kids, The idea was this:

  1. My 10 year old would be  ” The Plan”
  2. My 9 year old would be ” Surprise”
  3. My 3 year old would simply be “Oops!”

What do you think? Too honest?

Blogging on the GO

I downloaded the WordPress app on my Android phone last night and tried it out for the first time today.

Let’s start with what I love about it:

  1. You do not need to be connected to the internet to use it. You can write your blog, store it locally and once you have an internet connection you can sync and publish.
  2. It’s very easy add a picture. No searching for menus. Just tap the camera icon on the bottom right hand corner and either take a new pic or upload one from your phone.
  3. You can access your stats, notifications and manage comments very easily.

The problems I ran into:

  1. Typing over 5 words on my qwerty board made me feel like I had “big green sausage fingers” (points if you can tell me where that’s from) and I made a lot of typos.
  2. I ran into a problem formatting the picture I uploaded and couldn’t figure out how to fix it. I had to delete it and reload.

Overall I am very happy with the app and I’m writing this on my phone right now. Only this time I will take a look at it on my computer before I hit publish ( to avoid the typos)

Late addition;

As I was trying to save this above post I hit what I thought was “save” and instead published an unformated, typo ridden blog!  Aughh. I had to kick my daughter off the computer just as Caillou was going to the park with his dad. So now here I am trying to fix what my App messed up ( yes my app I’m not taking the blame for this one)  while my 3 year old is crying for Caillou. I still love the app but I need more practice.

Welcome to My Blog

I have been suffering from some very serious “Analysis Paralysis”. It has been at least 9 months since I first started thinking about setting up a WordPress Blog and 3 years since the though of writing a blog first hit me.

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I have been carrying this in my purse and reading it religiously on my commute.

I have joined Facebook groups about blogging, I have made LinkedIn connections for blogging, I have scoured the internet reading other blogs and I have been reading a 700+ page book on blogging. but alas there has been no blog.

It wasn’t until last night that I heard someone talking about the importance of making decisions.  She talked about how the consequences of not making a decision are greater than those of making the decision. The other thing that struck me is that most, if not all, decision are not life or death. So here I am. I’m taking the risk that I will write this blog and no one will ever read it or that someone will say something nasty about it or that it will turn out that I don’t even like writing it. As I sit here writing this however it feels great. Great that I started the ball rolling, great that I have a place to share my thoughts and great that at the end of all this, at a minimum, I’ll be able to say “I used to have a blog”. If that’s the worse that can happen why oh why has this taken me so long?

If you are reading this, I hope you will stay on this journey with me as I make my way through the blogsphere and life in general.